saint capriano
i started out thinking: my love is never loud / i’m behind the scenes / loving you / i’m wiping the
sweat / off your brow / & sending you back into the ring / loving you / i’m the photosynthesis
happening / in the grass / beneath your feet / as you walk on me / loving you / i’m the cells /
carrying oxygen to your organs as you sleep / loving you / the force / breaking the seal of the
condom / loving you / i’m the gravity / keeping your jesus poster up / loving you / i’m the idea of the
color you want to paint with / but can’t mix / loving you / the electrical current driving the light / to
your home / so you can reassure your daughter / the daughter that should have been mine / that
there are no monsters / loving you / i’m just gonna rent a stage / because i’m tired / of quiet lust /
fed up / with gesture-filled / devotion / like knees scraped / like thighs burning / like a body / in
need of an ice bath / & betray what i just said / no more love / by candlelight / no shadow-sign
language / i am / the golden child / the bareback bitch / bring your devotions / your em dashes /
your more / & i’ll bring my / salacious / charred / sooty appetite / for you / like something that
scares dogs / that sends rats fleeing / roaches crawling / back into dank holes / the x-ray that finds
the pea-sized cancer / watching you / watching me / watching it / grow / how what’s expelled /
looks like history / disguised as guts / in a bucket / trash day delight / for things that eat flesh / &
come / for bile parties / i’m that kind of loving you / the bury you / & don’t shed a tear / loving you /
until i am / by / myself.