this book is about : death, sex, pain, humor, love, food, geography, the body, family, tenderness, people that exist to hurt, goddesses, sickness, craving, motherhood, boys/bois, womxn, happiness, sexuality, trouble, mental health, spirituality, negotiations, brotherhood, sisterhood, gender, flowers, greek mythology, marriage, being lost, butches, extroversion, people that exist to heal, awkwardness, familiarity, active cultures, joy, heroes, false prophets, music, loneliness, nature, sleeping, drive, entryways/passages, time, ambiguity, theory, roads, intimacy, kindness, transformation, race, gentrification, venn diagrams, laughing, bleeding, relational thinking, impressions, bodily fluids, magick, escapism, drinking alone, drinking with those you do not know, drinking with those you are familiar with, certainties, taxes, birth canals, vaginas, fear, fake love, night, success, desire, possessiveness, drip, unrequited love, children, strength, self-preservation, journeys, television, weed, poetry, femmes, sobriety, impotence, things that are broken and can be fixed, things that are broken and cannot be fixed, things that are broken for the sake of being broken, painting, crushes, playing, talking, disappointment, abuse, 11:41 PM, arrivals, stagnancy, transportation, spectral bodies, candles, seance, xxx, xo, x, o, allure, demons, acting blackness, immunity, dykes, phones, ghosting, scenes, differences, god, questions, nudity, sleeping, placating money, beds, reminders, introversion, sitting, cruising, mirrors, alcohol, crying, breathing, hospitals, anger, answers, color, honey, oppression, singing, being alive.