Category: New Writing

Vis 13

My cells are separating

My cells are separating: growing legs, and unfolding.
You can press your arms around my shape

but wings are spilling out; frantic, fluttering colors,
a cloudburst of butterflies, exploding in every direction.

Make a net with your fingers. Crosshatch and catch me,
one by one. Curl your palm to shelter

so the edges can be pressed into hexagons,
wings wrapped and dehydrated, into chrysalises, row by row,

to make a knee; an ear; a body
that quivers, and ripples, in stasis.


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Vis 12

documented issues with temperature regulation

On the day I burst, they’ll find my leftover limbs
against a chair: my singed hair spread on the headrest,
my femur giving off smoke like a stick of incense,

my empty shoes kept for evidence. The scorch marks
on my wallpaper will be studied by experts,
but you’ll already know how the sparks began,

per always, in the soles of my feet, how my vital humors
were perfect kindling, my melted fats the ideal wick effect
with all my oils in motion when, for once,

in the torturous heat that builds for no reason,
there was the right snap, and I finally caught ablaze,
turned dark and burst into shockwaves, my vapor

catching the light before I collapsed into ashes.
Be glad on that day. I’ve already simmered
so many times before, at the sizzling brink of a body’s limits,

left too many steam handprints on the window,
lamented, oh lord, if I could self-immolate
instead of smoldering and writhing

for just one night.
Just one.


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Vis 11

better than anything I can offer sober

Our kind copes with fermentation, so my mother warns.
True, my genetic inheritance is primed to take over, but

the depth of my breath is so euphoric on the bridge,
swaying hot, surface cooled, swampy reflection below:

teeth stained purple; lip cells darkened. Mother,
I know I should be ashamed, I should be wondering why

my nervous system is displayed in grey branches below,
my silver sprawl of a thousand exposed, turned inside out,

why the cloud patterns in the algae are opening,
why the sounds of nature are in such agitation

and all the same chords keep repeating
in falling trills, inside my falling limbs,

heightening, lowering? But I swear
in these stilled, dark moments,

it’s better than anything
I can offer sober.


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Vis 10

I excel at the construction of spirit limbs

At night, I do not need a head
(never the important part)

I prefer wind tunnel fingers,
vaporous arms over my waist,

zephyr breath against my neck.
The weight and shape of lovers vary

when the barometer drops,
when compressed air creates pressure

firm enough to lean back into,
when the humidity sinks,

it’s all welcome weight
pressing down on me.

And when the air is still and silent,
I concentrate on the rows

forming behind my eyes,
pixelated, pulsing squares that flow horizontal,

then red waves, then old television static,
always the same pattern, before I open,

see the ceiling, start the journey over.
Strange comfort, to be anchored by pulsations,

but how many stifled nights
have I fixed on that movement for company?

Those inner patterns,
strange comfort on windless nights,

leaves me sated just enough
to remain salt, partially dissolved

but still able to crumble commands
when the weather pattern changes:

Come here headless, lover,
I will take your remaining tonight.


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Vis 9

places to store unwanted devotion

Slide between books
where it still flutters to catch the light.

Transfer under upturned glass to toss out the window
where it has no chance to catch its balance.

Shove into the side door pocket on the driver’s side,
amid the umbrella and window wipes.

Stuff under the floorboards, and secure with silver nails,
amid black scuffs from all the pivoting,

because if I am vigilant, this agony will stay sloshing somewhere
somewhere around my knees, if I drain it away

with a well-placed needle, citing grateful, grateful
for what I still have,

you will never ever
see a drop of this.


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Vis 8

body farms and bridges

I made plans on the edges of bridges.
You chose Pennsylvania body farms for your final rest.

I built a crystalline layer to block out the world.
You sought to lie down in front of a truck.

I hid the knives in the curtain hem and hid the sheath in the laundry.
You tied me down with dental floss to keep my bones from being stolen.

You were a manuscript stolen, bitter-spilled,
and I was the pin that claimed your flyaway tent, bird ready in my chest,

to chase after your flight. My cells were full of helium,
caught in a net of your shadow chest,

the tangle of your hand along my back.
Now I write cursive, I carve landscapes

to alter that trajectory once well-planned,
one micro-movement of the compass at a time,

no longer fixated on any particular star
but only the emptiness in-between.


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Vis 7

ribbon positions

They pull my shoulders back
with a taut snap, slide between my lips
to expose smiling teeth

and gag any cry of response.
But now I think: what if I sliced open my palm,
fished for a loose thread,

and pulled them all out of me?
Would they look lesser
as a soaked, bloody pile on the floor?

And what of the thin pathways left behind
all that hot, ungoverned space?
I think it just might prompt the unravel

of my gift-wrapped heart,
my pretty bow-eyes,
my scissor-curled fingers,

until there is just shapeless,
puckered skin,
refusing to remain

in position.


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Vis 6

achilles

He was the source for all my scars:
forehead, knee, anklebone.

Three years ahead in the game,
our world was slaps and fists,

knuckles driven into thighs,
wrists seared by Indian burns.

I’d seen his car crashes,
taken panicked calls in the dawn.

But he was always fine in the end.
Mother said coolant gnawed away his skin,

ran into his boot when the air bubble blew
in the car factory, pooled and chewed.

Third-degree right down to the bone,
and a trail of speckle-scars,

burns arcing across his back.
I imagined his heel as blade-scooped out:

severed ball of flesh, neatly round, removed
and pulsing, some hollow, bloodless cavity

but I couldn’t; I wouldn’t creep down
the basement stairs

to see those plastic sheets,
his body turned by nurses.

I got drunk on disinfectant,
studied bandages brought to the kitchen,

oily and orange; eavesdropped
when he shifted his weight

on the pullout couch,
watching cartoons alone.


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Vis 5

Cream-colored Camaro

“Police were seeking a cream-colored Camaro in connection to French’s abduction; anyone
with a car resembling that make and model became an instant suspect.” –quote about the Paul
Bernardo and Karla Holmolka murders in Ontario, Canada.

The headline of the Hamilton Spectator announced it first:
horror, horror, a blonde with braces hacked up,

encased in concrete and scattered at the bottom of the city lake.
Then, weeks later, found in the ditch: girl sexed, girl strangled

from St. Catherine’s, and a car connected to both bodies:
Cream-colored Camaro. Decades later, the stories don’t mention

how those cars were suddenly in every driveway,
wicked, pale suspects lined up the street. They don’t tell how

how us girls broke their windshields with rocks from our mothers’ gardens,
ripped pages from our English notebooks to write in block letters

WE KNOW WHO YOU ARE, how even the adults
flagged down police to report every auto in the neighborhood,

anything from tan to barely peach. They don’t talk about how
we were fixed inside our houses after dark, where our brothers

taught us how to punch (thumb outside fist, use a horizontal wrist),
and slipped their switchblade knives into our jacket pockets.

And they don’t remember how we sneaked out
to walk like boys at sunset: hoods up, heavy gait,

stomping down busy Guelph Line, fingering those dull blades,
and boasting exactly where we would stab the obvious man

(thigh, neck, maybe through the eye)
if we are next on his list.


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Vis 4

border town

“Watch out for the Americans,” we were told the first day:
the nineteen-year-olds that make their way

from Detroit over the border to Bentley’s,
the ones who grope our backs, who spill on us,

and then steal over the Ambassador Bridge
in the morning, giddy with their sly getaway

from our sweet mouths. But no worries, girls:
I speak their language. My father is the alien

that brought me over state lines for the summers,
so yeah, I know their ways. And they’ll learn quickly

we Canadians aren’t as nice as they say
when we give a flick of a finger when they stare,

when we fight through a radius of fingers,
mascara smudging in the heat, our goosebumps writing our story.

The best means to take our revenge are the first notes
of ‘Home for a Rest:’ let’s scream in unison, raise your bottles,

hook arms to lock the Americans out as they look on,
bewildered from behind. Of course, they don’t know.

They never think to learn something on this other side.
So, the Yanks will only swing their shoulders,

clutch the beers they can only order here,
and stare at the backs of our jeans while we dance.


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